Today was a difficult but warm day. I attended a birthday party for one of Gabe’s closest friends. It was an amazing party and Gabe would have loved it. The live music and crowd were on point. I imagined him in every section of the party, talking and laughing with his closest friends. So may people approached me with hugs and condolences and they all had a kind word to say about Gabe. I cried alot but also smiled some.
When I was saying my good-byes, someone took me aside and said that Gabe would have wanted to me to be happy and to enjoy the time I had left. I think others thought it but were to afraid to say it. I thought about a response but I just smiled and said thank you. How do you properly respond to these comments? I am not sure and everyone is different. Others have good intentions but I don’t feel like thinking about enjoying time.
The only thought that allows me to get out of bed each day, is the thought that perhaps (and I use the work perhaps” lightly), Gabe will take my hand one day so we can pick up where we left off.
Love you honey … until we meet again.
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